28 “What do you think? A man had two sons. And he went to the first and said, ‘Son, go and work in the vineyard today.’ 29 And he answered, ‘I will not,’ but afterward he changed his mind and went. 30 And he went to the other son and said the same. And he answered, ‘I go, sir,’ but did not go. 31 Which of the two did the will of his father?” They said, “The first.” Jesus said to them, “Truly, I say to you, the tax collectors and the prostitutes go into the kingdom of God before you. 32 For John came to you in the way of righteousness, and you did not believe him, but the tax collectors and the prostitutes believed him. And even when you saw it, you did not afterward change your minds and believe him. ~ Matthew 21:28-32
I recently heard the testimony of an ex-gang member who found Jesus while in solitary confinement during his rather long prison sentence. He went from a life of gang violence from the age of 11 to finding Jesus in solitary at 18. When he found Jesus, he didn’t take it for granted. He put everything on the line to follow Christ. Everything, including his life. I read how he talked about not only reading his Bible and praying daily in prison but also fasting. He would stay in his cell and pray and read his Bible as the other inmates went to the cafeteria for lunch.
He was what one would describe as an undesirable. A murderer. A thief. Nothing short of a terrorist. But when he found Jesus, everything changed. So many of us who grew up in the church have never even fasted a single day. This young man grew up in violence and never even went to church as a kid, but as he got saved, he studied to show himself approved. This isn’t a new phenomenon either. There’s a real sadness in this truth that we who grew up in the church experiencing the love of Christ oftentimes take it for granted, while those who would be categorized as the undesirables of society seem to rarely, if ever, walk away from grace when they find it.
We who grew up with Christ should be paving the way for them. We should be teaching them how to eat meat, but we ourselves can barely even handle milk. Imagine if we stopped looking at ourselves the way society sees us and started looking at ourselves the way God sees us. We’re all saved the same way, by the redeeming blood of Jesus. We all have to say the same prayer of repentance regardless of how many sins we’ve committed. Our past doesn’t matter. How good we think we are doesn’t matter because we’ve all fallen short of the glory of God. If we could just grasp the weight of our sin and how much Christ really has done for us, we would all be seeking God the way this young man did from inside the walls of his prison cell.
Dear LORD, please soften my heart towards You and Your Word and Your Kingdom. Help me to seek Your face above all else. Renew in me a right spirit and crucify the flesh that tries to hold me back. Give me a heart for You, oh God. Mold me into a vessel that can be used by You. In Jesus’ name, I pray, amen.